Wow, what a few months that have passed. We’ve had counseling, Christmas, music lessons, heart attacks, pacemaker surgery, kids moving, kids freaking out, moms freaking out, dad’s freaking out, pets dieing……did I mention mom’s freaking out. lol
STOP!
Ok, let me take a deep breath, let it out and start somewhere that I can at least make some of this sound like there is a little bit of sense, who am I kidding about making sense, lol.
I was going to leave my beloved husband last summer. We started seeing a marriage counselor. After I lost almost forty pounds even my counselor said things were not going well. I finally looked at him and said it’s not that I don’t love you, I just can’t live with the anger, the stress, the not knowing, I just can’t go on this way any longer. He asked me if he went to anger management would I consider postponing my decision, I said yes. I’m still here….he started the appointments with the counselor on his own. I think there was some progress made. More than in the past. In December he had surgery for a pacemaker. Actually to be specific an ICD, implantable cardioverter defibrillator. Say that five times fast. Our daughter came home in January for her Christmas break. She moved to Alberta in September, to work in a resort. She loves it there, loves the job, the people. A friend came with her that lives out of the country. So I had two girls for Christmas in January. Hubby was really good. It was a great week. No tempers, I was on edge though because I didn’t know really how it would go. He did really try to be sociable. I could see it. He is trying to keep his anger and temper at bay and talk about what is bothering him. So something clicked. Now my darling daughter has decided to travel to Australia! My kid the traveler, lol. What can I say. I’m proud of her. She is strong, independent and self-sufficient.
Ah, now the other news. My charming son and I have begun music lessons. For Christmas, there was drums and an electric guitar under the tree. lol I am the drummer. I have been absolutely having a blast. It is refreshing, exciting, totally freeing. I love the sound, the boom, the way it resonates inside your body. The beating is like your heart….keep it beating, don’t let it stop.
